Shhh keep it quiet

Its been a while since I dont write in here.
I feel like I have to write here,because if I dont Ill never remember how I felt at this very moment of my life,and I want to,even if I actually dont even know how I do now.
There is something that has crossed my mind in Philosophy,in Maths and in English,oh and in French!
Unspoken words.Ouch! How I hate them,Ireally am the girl of the unspoken words,I never say how I feel.When I talk I say the wrong thing,because somehow it looks right at the time.I never said what I had to,knowing how much I was going to regret it afterwards.
But I guess I thought it was worthy,not listening to myself saying it outloud,but always remembering inside.

Well,It wasnt.I fucking want to shout it now.I want to rewind and shout it to your face.
But then again,ill never will.
Cause shutting up is so much easier.